Today, I lost you grandpa. I lost you to God. I know my turn with you is over and now you have moved on to a beautiful place. You deserve to be happy with all your friends and family members who have passed on. I will miss your voice... I so badly want to call you right now to hear "Hi Mija!" but now I can only hear you in my dreams. This is the worst day for me grandpa. I am hurting and so angry that this disease entered your life. I love you and miss you. I can't stop crying because I want to be with you. I want to be with you now and forever. You are no longer a phone call away. I want to ride the bikes to the pier and just feel safe with you again. I don't feel safe anymore... My world was safe because you were in it. You were the wind beneath my wings and now you are flying in the wind around me. I am glad that you are not suffering because you didn't deserve to suffer but we all know that this wasn't your time. My God you had so many more years ahead of you. Now, I lost you forever. Thank you God for bringing him into my life. Without my grandpa, I don't know where I would be or who I would be. Grandpa, you taught me to love and how to feel love. My memories are of nana, papa, tia.... Although that changed years ago, you were still my papa. I love you and miss you grandpa. I'm hurting right now. I wish this was just a horrible dream but I know it's not. Don't ever leave me. I will continue to make you proud!